My “best friend” if I can say it like that is such a gaslighting b****, I don’t have many friends and she acts like she’s top s*** and basically b****** if I don’t respond to her. I’m so lonely and so tired. She makes me just want to throw away my phone and cry and she always makes me feel so miserable sometimes but she also is my friend and makes me feel happy, but I know this isn’t healthy. It’s such a bad cycle and I wish I could just stop and find new friends and I’m so tired of her. Being in the pandemic doesn’t help. I’m so lonely.