I’ve started a relationship with some guy that I can’t stand, but the sex is good and it feels nice to be wanted by someone. I know I’m gonna end up

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I’ve started a relationship with some guy that I can’t stand, but the s** is good and it feels nice to be wanted by someone. I know I’m gonna end up dumping him and I’m leading him on but I have nothing else better going on right now in my life.
Having a rough go with everything at the moment… most of my friends are straight-up ignoring me all the time. I’m the only one that ever tries to reach out or initiate any plans ever, it’s exhausting and depressing and I feel worthless, if they don’t want to try to reach out it must be cause I’m not good enough for their time.
Living s**** most of the time, im just pushing through to accumulate things and time that don’t matter. Social interaction is the only thing that gets me through it and that’s falling through. Prolly cause im a bummer (lol), and it’s a cycle of being sad, being boring, and being more sad cause im boring. Definitely not gonna kill myself cause that’s p**** s***, but I want to stop feeling things for a while.
Sometimes I wish I could just die for a day and see how people would react, unfortunately I don’t think people would give two shits about me until I wasn’t around anymore.
I don’t open up to people about things anymore because I’ve found that it just leads to ammunition for them later on when they don’t like you like they used to. It’s better just to go onto sites like this, dump your s*** and then never have to think about it again: it gets lost in the stories about Corvallus’s backpussy and anti-Asian hate speech

New Confession

I miss being 13 and going through puberty, it was just me and My mom, she was gone alot working or out with friends, She would leave early on a Sunday morning and go hang out with her friends, Id wake up after she left had the morning hardon, having to pee, plus I slept naked, I walked out to the front fully naked except id have my sandals on take leak out in the front yard completely n***, we had a new trailer mom bought us and we was on her dads land after they passed away, so lots of privacy, After I peed in the yard I would walk down a long dirt road and get the mail from the mailbox across the paved road from our long dirt driveway, id spend most of the days Naked and masterbating.

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