I wish I can say this in front of you without ruining our friendship if it goes all wrong. I.. love you. I cannot lie, the fact that I felt an electric from the moment I finally laid my eyes properly on you, to look at you properly as a person and not just a background; and I also know that you felt that too. That’s why you did most of the things you could to show me that you are interested in me. I tried to show you too. That I am interested in you as well, but as a matter of fact, I was in love with you even back then. I just did not tell you about this. I am scared. Scared that you are just being friendly to a friend, a student, a junior. So I gave subtle signs. but I guess that you are sick of thinking too much about the signs and just gave up on me. The times that you were cold to me are more than the times that you showed me the warm, kind, considerate, cute and childish you. Yet, every time I thought of you, those happy memories that we had together always comes before the sharp pain piercing into my heart comes and bring me to tears. You said that I am annoying, so I kept my distance and do not disturb you for weeks. When I was forced by family to ask you about some things, you put me on read and said that you had a girlfriend. So I left, no matter how it breaks me, I left with my heart still with you. For a year, I tried so hard to resist myself from thinking about you. I tried my best to forget about you. When I thought that I had totally forgotten about you, you came back. Trying your very best to be close to me. Treated me like how a boyfriend would treat his girlfriend. Close friends kept telling me that you are playing with me just because you are bored after the breakup. I said I’m just treating you as a friend and nothing else. But deep down, I know, that I am blinded by my thirst for your love. You left me. Leaving me with my heart broken to pieces. I am tired… I am tired of being constantly chasing after a guy who only look at things that benefits his future and nothing else. I am tired of my mood changes whenever you are involved. I am tired of pathetically loving you for all these years even when you treated me like non-existence whenever I do not benefit you. I am tired of feeling ecstatic whenever I found out about how you treated me differently back then. I am tired of being heartbroken again whenever you got a new girl that only fulfills your goal to be married before you start working. I am tired of loving you endlessly and being played over again and again by you pathetically. I am going to forget you now. If you ever care to ask about whether there is any regrets about this relationship with you, the only regret that I have is wasting my time loving someone who stopped trying.