I surrender. Goodbye Siren. This pain that makes me so casually cruel will destroy me if I linger any longer. I’ve stopped functioning on a basic level. I don’t know why I still care so intensely after so long. I guess everyone has that one person that makes them crazy that they’ll truly never get over. This is wrong. It shouldn’t be this way. I want this to end, but no matter how many times I try I can’t stop lashing out. Maybe in another life we will find each other again. If I can’t fix myself, I promise you that I will kill myself before I ever go near you, nevermind try to hurt you. I may put on a good show but it’s all a bluff from a powerless and bitter fool. I’m giving up any power I have my letting you know that I have no intention of ever following through on any of my empty threats. It’s just the kind of trash talk I got good at living online. I’m just an a****** when I have a keyboard in front of me and I can’t see it hear who im interacting with. Text is so impersonal. I can’t even bear to hear your voice or see videos of you right now, do you honestly think I could face you in person? I hope these are the last words I ever say to you. I’ve done way too much damage. Goodbye, forever. Don’t look back. I won’t let us both be destroyed. I hope this is the last time we talk. It’s the only gift I can give.