i am horribly terrified of death. my mind, my emotions, my actions, they’ve all changed because of my new fear of death. whenever it’s mentioned, i flinch and all my happiness fades. my mindset is so toxic, it’s “why am i doing all of this if i’m gonna die anyway.” i’m losing myself and my motivation to do stuff. i want to live but i’m just too sad to do so. i want to tell more loved ones about this, but i can’t find a good timing. i’ve accepted that i can’t change death, but everyday i find new things to worry about it. i’m so clinged to this life. i want to continue to be happy, i like it here. i love my family a lot. if this depression continues, i’m seriously going to miss out on a lot of moments i wished i spent with my loved ones. i want this sadness to stop. it comes into my mind every hour for about 20 minutes. i’m suffering already at the age of 15.