I know I’m still single, I know I won’t meet anyone unless I put myself out there, I know people just think I want to be single forever. What I don’t like is being reminded of any of it. I don’t like being asked when are you gonna get married, when are you gonna go on dates, are you making an effort, or if I’m even trying. I don’t like when people try to make a joke of how their happy in their relationship and I’m going to be living the single life forever. I don’t like getting my hopes up when I’m out with friends and a guy walks over thinking he wants to talk to me, but no he wants to talk to my friends who are already in relationship, but won’t give the only one who’s single a second look. I don’t like talking to guys trying to show how interested I am in them and for some reason they’re too oblivious to it. I don’t want to cry anymore after I’ve masturbated and watched p*** because I’m sure the only intimacy I’ll have is with myself and a computer. I know what I want, and if I have to wait forever for the kind of relationship I want, I will. I don’t have time for games and if I find what I want and if I were to die the next, it’d be worth it for me.
Stop with the jokes, stop with the questions, and stop with the pushing.
I still haven’t given up hope and that’s what keeps me going.
