I have a toxic brother who constantly rants about wanting to die and hating us all. He never does any housework so I have to deal with it. Now he makes my life hell but I know, I just know that once I’ll leave for university he’ll realize how much I actually helped him and how much he’ll have to do on his own (with my mother always at work and my father on a wheelchair) and that would bring him to kill himself. And I’ll constantly feel like I could have avoided that, but on the other hand I cannot give up my future just for that brat to stay alive.
