my mom brought up the topic of homosexuality again yesterday, i cried for the majority of the day and she decided that anime made me gay and now i’m not allowed to watch it lMAODNDJDN
anyways
she brought up some repressed s***** trauma and told me that i’m gay because her ex husband s******* abused me; that alone would’ve made me sick but in addition she called me perverse and continues to act like my urge to start a family of cats with a pretty girl is a weird fetish of mine ; ouch lol
my stomach has been hurting since yesterday and everytime i think about myself too hard i start dry heaving, whenever i take my clothes off it gets worse and i start crying, i physically cant bring myself to m********* anymore ; i don’t want to have a period, i don’t want to have the energy to feel like this
i don’t want to be able to do anything anymore
this brought up old habits, i’ve just decided i can’t eat anymore
i’m so tired of living here
