I was raped and now I sleep with men like it no big deal. I feel like I am desperate to minimise s** so that what happened to me was no big deal. I also feel some sort of power choosing to have s** when I had no choice when I was raped. I don’t think these are healthy comping mechanisms but I feel like I need to make it clear that there is a difference between an act you choose and one you don’t or I won’t survive in this world. Now, s** is something I feel nothing from. It’s like I have no emotions when I f*** a guy, and, I’ll f*** them with very little consideration. Before I was raped, I’d only slept with my husband.