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my 10 year old dog is gonna suffer more.
i found out he has a great risk of getting testicular cancer- and i know, his immune system is gradually softening. i am poor, i cant financially help my baby.. i feel alone with his battle.
my baby has suffered while growing up. my dad and brother would abuse him. in the past. i was just a kid and teen, dad pressured me and manipulated me into not telling anyone. the fear he put in me is still here.
i love my dog so much.
i dont want to f****** see him suffer anymore…
deep down i want him to finally rest. i want him to wake up in heaven. no one to abuse him anymore. i want him to run around like never before, in heaven. i want him to experience real happiness rather than the mediocre and awful life he’s had, with me. thaat i have suffered with too.
i want to let him go.
but my heart f****** hurts.
am i selfish?
i want the best for him.
as his human- i want him to finally rest.
i love him to death man
f***.

when its time…. i will be there with him. he will die, peacefully, in my arms. his human, his friend.
but i cant predict what the future will be like.
……..i want to let you go. my baby. you’ve suffered enough.
i love you so much…….

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