Having a psychotic Break is hell . I understand. The only difference is I was never violent . I never wanted to hurt anyone . I guess I played the martyr .

It seemed ok if I was abused. I have since changed and healed that part of my spirit . I wish I could tell you there is a magic pill or magic wand . But there isn’t . Healing is work . It’s not easy. Truthfully? It hurts like hell when healing .

But be patient with yourself. If possible? Open your mind to the possibility of a higher power. . That can heal you . But first order of business ? Try to forgive yourself . Ask your mom
To forgive you . She’s your mom .. I think she loves you unconditionally.

Please talk to someone. Guilt and self hate will eat you alive . Please understand. Being psychotic doesn’t mean it’s a life sentence . Healing is possible. Please trust me . Learn everything you can about forgiveness . Once you let go of the hate ? You can finally breathe .

-schizophrenic girl