It kills me I fell for another man who only wanted to control. When he not get his way an embarrassing fit he would throw. Call me names. Eventually hit held down smother me so I couldn’t get help. Why? Why can’t a man accept a woman who does things on their own. You do. Why would any one sleep in some ones parking lot to spy on me only to see nothing. Although u accused me of. What a fool for not believing in yourself. Or maybe it was your guilt. Whatever. Know I love. Loved but couldn’t stand the thought of life with a man who didn’t have enough respect for himself or me. Had you. U would not of behaved that way