I… am suffering from seasonal depression. Its not crippling, but its getting there. My family is natively black, and my Roommates are white, and because I would rather sit in the house on my computer all day, my mom assumed that I just hate being around my own race. I just wanted to be alone, like I always am. I’m not ungrateful that my brother came to see me, or that he wanted to buy me something for x-mas, I’m more upset that I know that later, he’s going to remind me and use the fact that he purchased anything for me at all, as a reason as to why I should give him his way.

Damn it, I’m lonely and I needed some time to sort out my own feelings and come to a solution on my own. I’m an introvert, I hate going out without being warned in advance. I hate crowds if I can avoid them, and most importantly I like having my own money to spend on myself.

Thank yall for wanting to make me happy but you all don’t do it for the right reasons. I suppose I’ll just stay home this xmas too.