Two completely different treatment for two guys since beginning and now I am expected to go completely against all odds and prove myself. I am not as motivated as he is. I am scared and feel insecure because of the unfair treatment I have always met in pretext of trust make me think so far I have wasted 30 years of life. Anyways I also have to survive and do good so will do my best though my motivation level is low. Assuming me being so big that they have cut me short so badly. In presence, other person start getting unnecessary advantages to send me indirect message that we don’t like you – do you understand. If I don’t understand they will start abusing me. Life s****! I will do my best to put smile on my face and laugh no matter what happens! Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha
