I want to be worthy of your energy. You aren’t even attempting to try and fix this. Just abandoning me. No fight. Sometimes “Sorry” isn’t enough. Maybe flowers on my doorstep. or a note in my mailbox. or how about a text to wake up to this morning with all the reasons you love me. if there are any at this point. I have COVID 19. locked away all alone and you don’t even seem to care. I want you to fight for me. Fight for me to stay. But you don’t. I want a man who posts about my birthday and how much you want the world to know you love me. not underwear. I want reasons you miss me. not just “You”. That’s not a reason. I want someone who goes “no mom I want her there”. I want someone who doesn’t constantly miss my body and never tell me you miss anything else. DO you even love me? cause while I sit here remembering why I do you’re out partying with family and not once did you promise to come back to me and try to fix this. Literally abandoned. My safety…gone. I just want words of affirmation. I want flowers. I want notes. I want your love. But I guess I’m just not worth that to you. If that’s the case just say it and I’ll leave. Cause I’m not going to make this work with someone who is never going to change or even try to. I’ve never put so much time, energy, and love into someone and it doesn’t feel reciprocated. You know I don’t want to be alone. I just want you to come after me. And you won’t. You let me leave every time knowing I’ll be the sucker that comes back. That’s not fair. Come after me, because one day, when I leave, I won’t come back.
