I regret a lot of things but the one thing that I can never forgive myself about is that I don’t have you in my life anymore.
But that doesn’t matter because all I want for you is to be happy in your life even if I’m not in it.
I just want you to know that I was really in love with you and when you started dating other people I felt like you didn’t want me anymore. I didn’t know what I was to you but I wanted to be around you even if it hurt sometimes

I know how selfish it sounds but one day I couldn’t handle all the stress i was putting on my self because I couldn’t build the courage to tell you that I loved you. So I left you and I hurt you purposely in order to push you away. And it hurt, it hurt so much to see that that was all it took for you to leave me. I felt like nothing. I felt empty without you but I didn’t feel like a vessel either.
I miss you but I know that you don’t want me back
I should have told you a proper good bye but I didn’t wanna admit that I was losing you.
I still think of you and I know you don’t..