My cat had to be euthanized today. He was in pain, couldn’t move, eat, drink and defecated himself. Because of COVID I wasn’t able to be with him when the vet administrated the drug, this kills me because he hated the vets, I wasn’t there for him, he died with strangers. I can’t have children and when I found out I got this cat, he has been with me for almost two decades. I’m just so incredibly sad, I’m all alone now (no one wants to date/marry a barren woman) and I’m typing this looking at his cat bed, god this hurts.