TW: I’m afraid my eating disorder is coming back. No one knows about it, it’s hard because I’ve always been known as a foodie to outsiders. I love the taste of food but every mouthful makes me think of the weight I’m going to gain. I managed to kick it a little two years ago and started eating properly, but recently something inside me has triggered it again and I haven’t had a proper meal in 4 days. Last week I had about 2 meals in the whole week. I know I should eat, but I can’t. I take Ritalin in the morning to suppress my appetite. I can’t stop myself. I don’t want to die, and I know I can’t live like this, but I don’t know how to stop myself. Confessing helps a bit though.