I f****** hate myself so g******* much. I’m a disgusting fat pig. I never want to eat ever again so I can either get thin or just f****** die. Life was so good 4 years ago, I was so thin and everyone liked me, I never had to worry how I looked in photos, now it gives me anxiety because if I see myself in a photo or video I see how fat I really am and it sends me spiralling. But because of this stupid f****** pandemic I just keep eating and I do nothing and its my own fault but I can’t stop.