F*** 2020, Ive lost 20 lbs this year, my muscles are rapidly shrinking, I’m not eating half of what I should be eating. I never fall asleep before 4am. Ive lost interest in most of my hobbies and spend most of my days compulsively m***********, compulsively stalking women who I don’t talk to anymore and don’t even like, and smoking weed. I can barely even keep my apartment clean or keep up with personal hygiene, and after years of isolation, the covid makes me even more terrified to leave the house because me and all my loved ones are high risk individuals. I can barely move out of my chair most days the brain fog is so bad. I’ve started talking to myself. Why am I like this?