lol i hate having so much anxiety 🙂 they won’t officially diagnose me with it but my therapist recognizes how much my brain is rotting every minute. some days i can spend the whole day with friends and it’s great and then other days every single thing is so overwhelming and even a simple wind hitting my hands can bring me to tears. i’m just so tired of having to go through such mediocre ups and such deep downs. i hyperfixate on things just so i can cope and then i stop fixating on those things so i have nothing left to make me happy until i find the next thing. it’s like i’m constantly on the verge of burning out but my body won’t let me take the plunge. i just want to be able to be happy again