I’m addicted to video games. I think I could be a f****** badass if I weren’t. I don’t mean formidable, intimidating person– I mean incredibly productive, better communicator, better lover. But I just crave that fake empty nonsense feeling “accomplishing” stuff in the digital pretend word while listening to political commentary only, as if that makes it less of a waste.
It’s like the chips and dip cycle– you have leftover chips, so better buy dip, and if you have leftover dip, you’d better buy chips! Well, I wanna listen to this 3 hour discussion–better play a vidya! I wanna play a vidya–better get 3 hours of conspiracy theory-fueled ranting! Heaven forbid I do something productive, or nice for my family, or healthy, or useful to myself or society!
And I tell myself I wanna stop, and I get that craving, and after all these years I can’t stop.
