This time of year always makes me melancholic. It reminds me of times when I used to have happy memories with my family and mother, …going to pick up a christmas tree, christmas morning and all the wonderful smells that would abound. It makes me sad because it reminds me those days are getting very far behind me and now that our relationship is toxic and we don’t even speak, and that’s really sad because there’s not much time left to do simple things, or even say, “sorry’. I try to keep optimistic and at least I have those memories even if I don’t have any love.