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I used to struggle with self harm, but it’s been ages since I hurt myself. At least two years. But today, I don’t know why, I cut myself. Not deep, there wasn’t even any blood, just little scratches. And I’m scared of falling back down that rabbit hole. I’m scared that I’ll do it again and it’ll be deeper and then I’ll do it again and again and you get the idea. I’ve been feeling stressed recently, and I’m in an environment more similar to when I was self harming, but I don’t want to start this again. I won’t. I can’t. I know that even these little scratches are not normal behavior and I need to get ahead of this before it gets ahead of me.

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My wife knew i was a recovering s** addict when we dated, when we married, and knew that it stemmed from childhood maternal molestation many years ago. She knows i will not act out, that i love her too much to do that to her, and she knows to the degree any non s** addict can how exhausting the onslaught of compulsive intrusive s***** thoughts are. But she still rejects my sincere well motivated desire for surgical or chemical castration and i cannot understand why. We have a platonic relationship so it would be zero loss to either of us.

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My wife knew i was a recovering s** addict when we dated, when we married, and knew that it stemmed from childhood maternal molestation many years ago. She knows i will not act out, that i love her too much to do that to her, and she knows to the degree any non s** addict can how exhausting the onslaught of compulsive intrusive s***** thoughts are. But she still rejects my sincere well motivated desire for surgical or chemical castration and i cannot understand why. We have a platonic relationship so it would be zero loss to either of us.

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