tw // it’s just so hard. my parents are so emotionally and sometimes physically (to a lesser extent) abusive and toxic and i love them and i know they love me but i can’t do this. i don’t want to be here anymore and i know no one likes me but god it’s just so f****** hard. i wish i had the guts to do something. i miss my friends so much but i know they dont care i justwish icould go back to how it used to be.