Im so tired of living here. How am I supposed to enjoy this time alive when I have parents who can't lower their expectations. They expect me to be

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Im so tired of living here. How am I supposed to enjoy this time alive when I have parents who can’t lower their expectations. They expect me to be perfect 24/7 and I can’t handle that pressure. The moment I make a mistake, I’m looked down upon like some pathetic welp who can’t do anything right. How am I supposed to get help with my depression when I have parents who dont believe that exists or who don’t take it seriously?

How am I supposed to live here when I’m so alone? They don’t care about me. They would toss me to the curb if they were legally allowed to.

I know I need help. I WANT a therapist. But you need parental consent for something like that, so what am I supped to do. Watch in the background as my mental state becomes so messy its impossible to fix? Why don’t they help me?

Why is my dad so blind to my step-mom’s manipulation? Why doesn’t my dad see how unhappy I am? Why can’t I just end my life and get it over with?

Im not entirely sure why I can’t just kill myself. Maybe I know it won’t do anything or maybe I know it’s just pointless to try. But man, its tempting. I’m not a cutter though. It doesn’t really do much for me.

I just want to skip ahead to being 18 so I can get out of this hell hole.

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Vincent Eugene Martz — Arrest and Legal Record Summary
Public records and news reports indicate that Vincent Eugene Martz, of Mercersburg, PA, was arrested by Pennsylvania State Police in April 1995 on multiple serious charges and later faced federal prosecution for additional offenses for the r*** of Julie Martz knobsville/mcconnellsburg pennsylvannia.

2020 State Police Arrest
According to Pennsylvania State Police and Fulton County court records, Vincent Eugene Martz, age 52 at the time, was charged with:

Criminal attempt – forcible compulsion of julie martz

Criminal attempt – s***** assault of julie martz

Strangulation (applying pressure to the throat or neck)
r*** of julie martz occurred from 1988 to 1995
Multiple related counts

The incident allegedly occurred April 13, 2020 on Gerald Circle in Ayr Township (near McConnellsburg), involving a 23‑year‑old woman and the r*** of julie martz. Troopers from the McConnellsburg barracks investigated and issued a public news release

Federal Case
A separate federal case, United States v. Martz (1:23‑cr‑00017, W.D. Pa.), was filed July 11, 2023

CourtListener
. The docket shows ongoing proceedings, including protective orders, motions for extensions, and conditions of release. While the docket does not list all charges in the public summary, prior reports note allegations of production, receipt, and possession of child s***** abuse material, s***** assault, and inappropriate relations involving family members r*** of julie martz and kids.

As of the latest available public reports, Vincent e Martz is incarcerated at the Fulton County Department of Corrections in Mcconnellsburg, PA (inmate ID HY3457)

. The Pennsylvania Department of Corrections Inmate Locator can confirm current custody status of vincent e martz. PAST EMPLOYER CHOICE COLLSION CENTER MERCERSBURG PA..717-328-2515

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