It’s sort of hard to wrap my head around the fact that they never cared. nothing. Proved it time and time again I’m just someone you use to fill the void when you’re in between people and that really s**** I loved you I don’t know what to say I’m still in shock how when you completely like cut me off again last night I don’t even know what I did this time certainly don’t think I deserve the silent treatment for another six months. I don’t know maybe it made you uncomfortable getting together with me I don’t know or maybe you just found somebody else to hang out with but in any case I really will miss your phone calls and video calls and hearing from you it was just awesome I meant a lot to me. I really would love to be able to still call you up every once in a while or vice versa just to catch up. Maybe like once a month or every couple months just something not to lose touch. I guess if I don’t see you I hope you have a happy birthday I really didn’t mean to make you feel like I was begging you to come that got a bit humiliating after a while. It’s gonna be hard to get used to no one to talk to you again but I don’t know I’m just surprised how little I actually meant I don’t even really know what to say but I want you to know I’m going to do you know if that’s what you want I’m not gonna bug you. And you don’t have to see me you don’t have to run and hide I’m not gonna do you know keep bugging you about it maybe I could try to call you next month if that’s OK I really It’s still once in a while like to know what’s going on in your life you’re not my enemy really I love and will miss you very much… Again