I got a haircut today and I know you’d love it and make me feel so good about it because you liked my curls. Now it’s even curlier and super short and I know you’d play with it like crazy. I miss that and you a lot. We talked today and it was the usual the same stuff you’ve always said to me. I’ve heard it a bunch of times it doesn’t hurt as much anymore. There’s nothing left for me to do but have hope and give everything time like everyone has been telling me anyway. I just can’t seem to not text you. I tried believe me. Either I’m leaving things at your house or I’m texting you and you don’t want either but I can’t hold myself back I just want us to be okay. Negative thoughts don’t do anything but make it reality so I try and think positively so that good things can hopefully happen with us. I just miss you tonight and I know it’s gonna be a night with a lot of crying. I hope one day you wanna play with my curls again and we can lay in my bed cuddling watching each other’s for you page. But I always loved your house more and I told you that. I loved your room it felt better than my room. Made me feel so safe and warm and loved. Your whole house did too. We eat Wendy’s at the table and sit on the couch when we had to look straight for your mom. I like your basement too because we got to watch things and sit with all your friends. And that’s where I snuck in which was funny. You were my home you were my safe place and now you’re not. You’re just gone
