My mom thinks I’m always happy and fine but she doesn’t know the true me. She doesn’t know that I get stressed very very easily and I think i have anxiety bc for the last 2 weeks I haven’t stopped being stressed and going out in public gets me stressed but then she doesn’t know how bad im hurting inside! I put a smile on my face and laugh everyday but she doesn’t know how broken I am inside! And then she expects me to get all As in school! And calling the school every month isn’t helping! it’s putting more pressure on me than I already have! And the other day I was like you see mom unlike you I don’t take out my anger out on ppl I always keep my feelings to myself and she told me to be quiet and then the other day I was like when k!ll myself imma drink glitter bleach so I’ll be pretty inside and she was like really stop talking about that! and I was like Im telling the truth but she just doesn’t understand what it’s like to be my age at this generation! And what I deal with! And she will never understand my thoughts. And I just think that If I would’ve told her how I really felt she would think I’m joking around bc she one time said all these kids nowadays all say they have anxiety, but I’m not like other ppl I think I actually have it bc when ever I’m in public I start panicking and feeling dizzy and now that school is on zoom and we always have to have our cameras on isn’t helping either. Most days I take stress drops for school and I have them hidden in my room bc then my mom will take them and think I’m taking them bc they taste like candy but no she doesn’t understand! And she literally scheduled a appointment with my school counselor to talk about my grades! UGHH!? And instead of saying omgg, woww, geez, seriously!?, really!?. I always say lovely, awesome, amazing and I say that with like a sweet tone of voice bc yea. But no mom I know i’m not perfect like my sisters, sorry I’m here! Muah <3
