—————————————————————————————————————————————————I don’t wanna do this I don’t want to go to sleep because I don’t want to wake up in the morning. My first day of school I have to be up and I can’t handle it I’m struggling so hard I hate this feeling I have in my gut right now. I cannot bawl my eyes out because it’s too quiet and I’m so sad. That’s all I have to describe how bad I feel because it just hurts. I’m here with my dog because he makes me feel better but I can’t stop thinking of how bad I don’t want to keep going for anyone or anything. It’s just not worth it to me anymore and for a while it’s been that way. I fell asleep and I woke up and couldn’t breathe. This isn’t emotional and just mental anymore it’s been affecting me physically for so long. Everything keeps going wrong and I don’t wanna see another thing in my life go down on me
