My parents have a horrible marriage. My dad is a raging alcoholic who gets angry anytime he comes home. Just a few months ago we had one of his big outrages where he slams doors and abuses all of us verbally ( he did this because he couldn’t go to the pub again ) It’s continuous. We have friends that come over frequently and he always puts on an act.
Just a few years ago me and my brother experienced the worst fight they’ve had yet. It was quite a few days before Xmas in 2017 probably on the 17th because my parents friends always like to come over on Saturdays and they bring their kid, he’s nice. Anyway it was a normal fun night until my dad comes home from the pub with my parents friend (they always go) and he’s naturally drunk but more than he should’ve been. When my dad is drunk he gets angry and when he’s not ate beforehand it just gets even worse. My mum and dad start to argue whilst their friends are here which caused us kids to go see what was happening. It’s a horrible sight to see with your parents arguing. The friends were able to settle them for a bit but it didn’t help. By the time the friends were going i was in tears begging to go home with them. They told me “it would be fine”, lies.
Their fight continued for days without them talking and my dad continued to just waste his days at the pub on weekends and Fridays but it came to Xmas eve and that’s where it all was fucked up. My dad came home angry still and unfortunately my mum was still up. They were screaming and shouting at each other and started to slap and push each other. It’s one of the worst things as a child where I have to go between my own parents to stop them from fighting and arguing to protect me and my little brother. I was only 12 when this happened and I still can’t stop crying whenever I think about it.
I love my parents so much but I don’t think their marriage is anything right. We have marks on the walls in our house where they’ve hit each other. I get scared a lot such as tonight they’ve had another argument and my mum ends up going up to bed and going all quiet. I end up checking on her and she always tells me to never get with a man like my dad. She’s a strong woman and I hardly ever see her cry. She might think the words my dad says and calls her doesn’t get to her but they do.
We all have our breaking points. With the tho Nd s my mum says to me about avoiding anyone like my dad I can only assume she’s unhappy and my head jumps to conclusions very quick. I know my mum isn’t happy but we can’t afford a divorce and I don’t think she’d divorce for me and my brother to keep us “happy”.
It’s sad because I know she loves my dad deep down but he never did. My mums suffered with depression before and I don’t want my dad to push her into that state again or push her into anything worse such as suicide. I’d never forgive my dad.
I’m sorry for ranting I’m just a scared, currently crying kid who just needs to share a crappy life
