do u ever think about me anymore ? or do the days just keep passing by and you don’t even put a thought towards me ? we spend hours of every single day for weeks talking to each other . you were who i thought about when i woke up and when i went to sleep . do you remember ? or was i just some girl ghat you knew ? i couldn’t have been . idk why but there was this instant connection between us . i had seen you before and you always drew my attention but it wasn’t until that one day that YOU came up to ME . YOU were interested in ME first . but yet you were the one that left ? you abandoned me . you made me question my self worth . all our inside jokes , our laughs , when you comforted me after a breakup ? what was all that for? alll you did was throw it away . you left me with my heart shattered into pieces … when you used to be the one to help me pick them up and put them back together . you changed me . now im scared . im scared that anyone who i am with is going to leave like you did . im scared that anyone who im with will replace me. they’ll act like we are best friends one day but then never talk to me again for the days that follow . why would you do that ? why would you make me feel the way ? do you care ? did you ever care ? i spent countless days thinking about you . i spent nights crying myself to sleep because you just left me . you just left . they say you never forget your first love …. they’re right . its been over a year and i still remember our conversations , our laughs , our jokes . it was too good to be true . no happiness could last forever . and as much as i want to be close to you again , you aren’t the same guy i used to know . you changed . all you care about is “bad white girls” and cars . u used to be different . you used to be the nice guy . the friendly guy . the guy i fell in love with .. it isn’t you anymore . now you never want to talk to me , you reply dry as hell . and you only talk to me when you want head or nudes . neither of which I’ve given you . and it hurts because its like you don’t even like me anymore . you like my body or my face . but not ME . you’ve changed. i miss how you were when i first met you . i fell in love . hard . but you just … didn’t i guess . i was just another girl you had in your phone . thanks for making me feel like absolute crap :). it means a lot </3
