lockdown is tearing away at my mental health. Ive been having increasingly violent daydreams about taking a sharp object and cruelly stabbing my fahter to

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lockdown is tearing away at my mental health. Ive been having increasingly violent daydreams about taking a sharp object and cruelly stabbing my fahter to death. And while i would truly enjoy doing that, he’s not worth going to jail for. I feel overwhelmed by academics, both from school and from tuitions and im too lazy to be able to justify my work in either one. Everything around me is getting harder to understand and interact with and im stuck in a quantumm state between absolute despair and nervous confidence that i can get out of this shithole.most of all, i hate myself for letting everything slip away around me. This sounds like a self-pity session ik, but rn im just trying my best to hold out for this month till the quarantine ends.

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Am i the only man who sincerely thinks most men should be castrated as soon as they are 18/fully physically grown for societal benefit? Yes earlier would be better but you have to let them mature because society needs them as adult workers. They could be put in chastity cages until then. Which would also help by causing penile atrophy until they can be castrated.

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My wife knew i was a recovering s** addict when we dated, when we married, and knew that it stemmed from childhood maternal molestation many years ago. She knows i will not act out, that i love her too much to do that to her, and she knows to the degree any non s** addict can how exhausting the onslaught of compulsive intrusive s***** thoughts are. But she still rejects my sincere well motivated desire for surgical or chemical castration and i cannot understand why. We have a platonic relationship so it would be zero loss to either of us.