I was on top but now I’m failing in my craft, i see the mountain of competition and see no greener pasture on the other side, no time that I see myself able to relax or say “I’ll let the others do it”. I want to scream into a f****** abyss because I’ve held in all my emotions for so long, I’m so f****** tired. I’m tired of these fake f****** clients, I’m tired of these fake f****** friends, I’m tired of being inadequate in everyway possible that no one else sees. Just let me scream, I want to scream until my voice goes, I want to break, smash and have control of some aspect of my life. F*** this pandemic.
