I have been madly obsessive over my ex. One of the reasons he broke up with me was because I was over-attached and would constantly demand he cut time out of personal needs to care for my problems. It was toxic and manipulative, and he lost feelings for me due to such behavior. I understand that, and for a while my mind felt normal for a while without him. I AM able to take care of myself even better now, technically. And from what I’ve seen, I think Vincent is doing great too. After a while though, I suddenly snapped. I don’t know what happened.I DMed one suspected crush of his and told her terrible things including death threats. I snapped out of it as fast as it started, but I didn’t even feel bad. Life continued as normal. Until a few nights ago. I decided I NEEDED control over Vincent. It wasn’t a conscious decision or idea, it felt necessary. I learned HTML, made a phishing website, and was able to take over his Instagram account. I check it all the time, but I don’t say or post anything. I need to make sure that if he finds a new romantic relationship someday or one too close for my liking, I will kick him from the account and break up with them. It’s not even a good plan and I hate myself for being like this. Manipulative feelings are so f****** hard to explain.