i use be s***** assalted for a long time during my childhood and recently i got a boyfriend i guess i should say im a 16 yr old girl in high school i had this boyfriend while i was a sophomore and he was a senior well he always wanted to try and have s** with me but i wasn’t ready but i did give him bj all the time one time i wasn’t feeling great so i didn’t want to do anything that day he forced me to our hang out spot which was a person i knew house and he pinned me to the bed and stripied me he was forcing his way inside of me and i did nothing i couldn’t do anything i froze up and dissociated from what was going on and after i put my clothes on and we headed to school i felt so dead inside and i was in so much pain god it was so much pain he didn’t even talk to me for a few days after i never broke up with him until recently and he never apologized i feel sick when i see him but i don’t hate him am i wrong for not hating hum.