I wish I could kill my mom, i have developed abusive characteristics because of her. I physically abuse my siblings due to the anger and pain she has put me through. I hit by austistic little sister and my brother, I love them both unconditionally but my mother fucks up my mental health. I become moody each day, thought of suicide almost everyday. I wish I could end the pain, end it all. She’s a racist, narcissistic, manipulative, jealous, abusive mf & somehow im the blame for all of the problems in the family.
