I don’t know what to do anymore . I haven’t talked to anyone all day. No human contact . Just some texts/DMs . I’m so lonely sometimes I don’t know what to do. I want friends and people in my life but genuinely, not their pity. The thing is charity and kindness have limits, but I’m so unused to kindness I get attached and well you see how that works out . You can’t really build a friendship out of feeling bad for someone . But I put myself in that position tho by appearing pathetic in the first place. I’m trying to avoid a repeat of that but damn life really feels lonely without human contact or closeness . I don’t know which is worse then : being isolated or having that intimacy with someone that sees you as their project, then watching s*** fall apart. No one continues a good deed forever , and after a while they wonder what you’re still doing there . Either way I’m screwed.
