Lately my self image has just been getting worse. I’ve lost 25 pounds so far but there’s at least 50 more to go. My boyfriends sister made fun of some girls fupa and I wanted to die. I have one, too. Not as big as what she was laughing at but yeah…. I’ve seen tons of pictures of his ex girlfriend and she’s fit and petite. He’s an attractive, young, outgoing guy and I know that girls look at him.. I look out of place beside him. I feel like a mistake he doesn’t realize he’s made yet.

I AM legit obese, I’m not being stupid, and I’ve really been putting in effort to work on it. I want surgery to tighten everything up when I reach a weight that I feel like an actual f****** human being at. I really hate myself and exercise was helping me manage some of that pain.