I wonder if my boyfriend will still want me when he gets home from rehab. Will they tell him to drop me? Will I remind him of bad habits? Will he look at me and wonder what the hell he ever saw? If he doesn’t find me ugly will he find me boring? Will he thank me for everything that I’ve done and leave me to focus on himself? Did we meet so that I could clean him up for someone else? I’m so scared to be left behind.
The sun will be up in 10 minutes and in a half hour someone should be waking him up to check his vitals. In 40 days he’ll come home and I hope that I still get to be part of his life.
Love you, babe. Get healthy.
