I feel so conflicted by the state of our world, unemployment, an unwanted birthday, a disgust with certain family member habits…I know I can only control what is in my realm, but sometimes it just seems endless and never ending . The silent scream inside, the need to keep everything calm on the outside, raw emotions can just be like raw sewage…just let them pass. Frustration, hopelessness and that question: although there are momentary experiences of joy, I just don’t feel happy. It crushes me that I feel this way, my daughter’s last year at home. This isn’t what I’d imagined our lives to be and it’s just painful that it’s like this.
