(25) I’m still an alcoholic… As much as I know I should quit. I have nothing else than turbulent feelings, irritation, empty bloody wounds and an empty inner self to face once I’m sober for longer than a day.
I can’t do anything than run from my feelings, lest I’ll be up for days on end without weed and booze and literally anything including video games. F*** this life man. come into it with so much potential only to find out … That you’re trash. And that it’s just not worth living. Not worth living well or to “thrive”. What is the point…???