i deserve ti f****** die i deserve to suffer. im f****** psychotic and i can SEE MYSELF doing these things that hurt you even if theyre probably just a nuisance i reality but i f****** cant stop i cant stop even though i know it must s*** for you,. i need your attention i NEED it even though i truly dont and YOU dont need me. i know im f****** inasane im so sorry im so f****** sorry im ebarrassed by my behaviour i dont know wyh i cant just stop i dont know why i fish for a reaction. you deserve better. you have real better s*** to deal with and im SO SORRY im sorry i should just block you and let you live your life in peace. i wish someone would punish me so i can stop punishing both of us
