My ex and i are still very good friends and are very close, i still have feelings for him, but he’s been talking about his crush to me alot now, explaining some of the,, n*** dreams hes been having, and i feel like a f****** cuck and i hate it, the part of me thats his friend wants him to be happy and date this dude he has a real big crush on (he doesnt even know if hes gay or not but he really loves this dude) but the part of me that loves him wants to do all the stuff he dreams about to him. The thing that hurts me alot though is the way he describes this dude, its the exact same way i described him, bud hes explaining it like its a brand new feeling, so thats painful.