I love this girl and she knew it and i was perfectly fine with just staying friends and we did for a long time and she kept saying she wasn’t ready for a relationship which i respected because i was aware of what she was going through and just believed her and what not she told me that she wanted to have s** with me wanted me to be in her future and what not and we had a plan to have s** but then CoronaVirus put our country in lockdown and we weren’t able to do so and she met this person and is now having a deep connection with that person and saying that she likes them and wants to be with them but now the person shes talking to doesn’t wanna be in a relationship and its breaking my heart that shes talking to her we use to talk everyday now we talk at least twice a week and it doesn’t last long usually we would talk for hours now its 5-10 mins and then she goes talking to the person she likes and now im in so much pain because i know that I’ve lost her and that she probably doesn’t want me in her future anymore or will even consider having s** with me because she likes this person and thinks that she might be cheating or going behind her back even though arent together i might be overthinking but i know im losing her slowly and that is hurting me a lot and im becoming really suicidal over it because i keep feeling like im not enough and im useless i just miss her so much when she asked to call me today for no reason i was like okay and was a bit happy but as soon as i heard her voice i wanted to cry but i talked to her for half an hour and talked about things with her and she mentioned the person she liked and my heart shattered and i want her to be happy out of all things and if this is what makes her happy then im not going to interfer but im hurting whilst she is talking to this person as soon as i left that call i cried i just needed to get this off my chest i know no one will read this but i just needed to get this off