i hate my mother so f****** much you have no idea. she’s always been abusive, always. i was born because my dad physically abused her and she thought a child would save her marriage. i was just a trap for him to fall into. it didn’t work, and he soon turned to beat on me instead of her and she LET HIM. she saw him hurting me, a f****** CHILD, and looked away. and THEN she still stayed with him and when he found another woman, she popped out another kid to keep his attention. yes, she was abused, but not as bad as I was. I was a child, it started when I was about 1 and a half and continued until I was 8 and my dad went on the run from the police. She got worse, always worse. Would YOU be able to drag an 8 year old down the hall by her hair because she didnt drink all her water at dinner? Could YOU kick a 6 year old down a flight of concrete steps and leave her with permanent neck pain? could you? could you tell a 9 year old that she would be nothing but a dead, drugged up, single mother by the time she was 14 because she got out of bed late? at 16 she signed papers claiming I was suicidal and using hard drugs to get me hospitalized. I tested negative for all drugs, and I wasn’t suicidal, I was scared. I spent my 16th birthday in handcuffs being yelled at by mental hospital staff that i was “sick” and “a streetwalker” while she went on a date with whatever unfortionate man she lured in. I’m scared and alone. I have 240 days until I’m 18. Sometimes I think death is the only way out, but I’m not going to let her win