My mom spends her days yelling at her phone, completely delusional about the stories her mind creates. She has schizophrenia but won’t get help or allow us to help her.
My days are hell next to her. I can’t stand her yelling in the middle of the night to this voices in her mind. I try so hard to help her. I can’t do anything and I feel like I am drowning myself because of this, I don’t know how to help her, and live by guilt knowing I am the only one she has left and if I turn my back on her she’ll be completely alone. I can’t deny that I just want to leave and disappear from this, being next to her feels like giving up my own mental health and an opportunity of a good future.
I just wish I could send her to the hospital and have someone experienced deal with her for everyone’s sake. But she won’t go. And I can’t force her. I wish I could.