I just f*****’ hate myself…..i love my girl friend so deep…i take care of every little happiness of hers…she loves me too but whenever it comes to my happiness she always forgets…what should i even say….when ever i try to get intimate(not only s**) virtually she finds a way to move away…i cry my self to sleep…i beat my self to sleep every night….i have lost my confidence of my personality, my body, my looks…i have many dms of girls and she know it too but i do want to cheat…fuuuckkk…😭😭😭😭😭…..what should i do….she knows i want to get intimate and sometimes she too wants to but at that time my fortune fucks me…..something bad happens everything….whether its her family or the anything else….😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭….whatever i say i always get a no…on every single thing…i dont have happiness ratio…but i cant live without her anymore.. 😭😭😭😭😭😭