My wife and I just had our second child. I absolutely hate the thing. I wish it would die. I hate it. I hate it. Oh my god, I hate it.

Every time I hear it cry, I get an instant spike in blood pressure. It instantly pushes new into fight mode. I get a horrible migraine. I hate it so goddamn much.

My father raped me. I don’t hate him as much as I hate this child. My sister tortured me with lit cigarettes. I don’t hate her as much as this baby.

I f****** hate it. There’s no reason. I can’t logically talk myself down. I f****** hate it. I even cried out to Satan, hoping he’d be willing to take the child, for free. I cried to God to help me cope. I’m not even f****** religious. I hate it so much.

I love my other child and I love my wife, but I f****** hate this baby. I won’t hurt it, I won’t kill it. But I f****** want to. I love my wife and older child enough to not do anything that would jeopardize our life together.

What do I do…