I hate my husband so much I literally wish he were dead sometimes just so he can be out of my f****** life. He was so abusive in the past and I’ve never had the balls to leave because he’s almost tried to kill himself, begs for me to stay, and now we say we’re trying to save our relationship thru God. I don’t give a f*** if he can change and be a good person now, I absolutely despise him and still don’t have the balls to leave.